"I hate that I'm in love with him ... if the courts say no, I wouldn't care but I'm scared to lose him ... he makes me laugh, he makes me think, he makes me cry, he makes me feel beautiful, he makes me sing."

These were the exact words used by Davina Murray, former Maori Political candidate and lawyer, as she described her feelings for convicted rapist Liam Reid.

Her love for the convicted rapist made her head over heels in love and blinded that in spite of being a practitioner of law, she had been charged with smuggling an iPhone, cigarettes, lighter and even contraband in prison for the love of her life.

On Friday, July 19, 2013, was the fifth day of trial against her for smuggling iPhone, cigarettes and contraband. She denied the charges.

But a prison guard, Noel Purcell, stood witness that they had found the smuggled goods hidden in Mr Reids clothing after the smitten lawyer visited him in prison in October 2011, according to a New Zealand Herald report.

According to the report, Mr Purcell told the Auckland District Court, that they found a lighter and cigarettes down Mr Reid's pants, an iPhone in the toe of one of his shoes and contraband down to "his regions".

In the bouts of the hearing, the court also read some of Ms Murray's text messages to a friend, sharing her plans of marrying Mr Reid inside prison.

In one of the text messages, Ms Murray asked the friend in New Zealand for help, "Need to smuggle in two witnesses into jail as my staff to witness my wedding. When he gets out we will do the big la-la."

Ms Murray went about telling her friend all about the plans about the wedding, although she knew for a fact that the wedding can jeopardise Mr Reid's case.

Ms Murray explained her dilemma through text, "My heart says, I should do it but my head says Wait!"

Ms Murray also shared with her friend that they were able to steal a kiss inside prison and that she "had kissed Reid in a way she had never kissed anyone before."

But as smitten as Ms Murray to Mr Reid was, the latter was quite difficult to handle and had roller coaster of violent and romantic affections toward Ms Murray.

In one of the recorded calls from the smuggled iPhone, Mr Reid said to Ms Murray, "I expect results by the next time or I'll fucking smash you."

In a report from Fairfax Media, the court was also able to hear the conversation that took place before Mr Reid was caught with the smuggled cellphone.

"Get off your lazy ass. You can slip it into one of your diplomatic pouches."

Ms Murray reminded him that she was his lawyer not his secretary, to which Mr Reid responded harshly, "You are my fucking secretary and you will do as you are fucking told."

In other conversations, Mr Reid mood shifted to being romantic saying, "Sometimes, um, it sounds like, I am being really harsh and that towards you and I am sort of, but I just want you to harden up a little bit aye, I want you to be strong."

"I need you to harden up, then I see the sadness in your face and disappointment. I didn't mean it, I need you to stay strong for me, and you are all I have got you know."

"I know you can't read minds, even though we're pretty intuitive with each other ..."

Ms Murray had appealed to the court that the phone conversations should be excluded from evidence because they have lawyer-client privilege.

But Judge Russel Collins said that Ms Murray was only trying to "coat-tail" the laws protecting the prisoners.

Mr Reid is serving a 23-year sentence for rape and murder of deaf woman Emma Agnew and attempted murder and robbery of a 21-year-old student in Dunedin in 2007.