Wu-Tang Clan rapper Christ Bearer aka "Andre Johnson," has finally revealed the reason why he cut off his own penis before jumping out of a window last month.

TMZ reported that last month, Bearer was found in critical condition outside a North Hollywood California apartment building, reportedly of a fatal plunge. The rapper had cut off his penis before jumping off a second story balcony, reports said. Law enforcements told TMZ that they believed it was a suicide attempt.

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A source told EOnline that the rapper had used a serrated steak knife to cut off his penis first, and then removed his testicles and what remains of his genitalia. The 40-year old rapper was reported to have been high on PCP (Phencyclidine or Angel Dust) when the incident happened.

However, neighbours who were present when Bearer mutilated himself said, that they weren't on any hard drugs that would trigger the rapper to hurt himself. Bearer was rushed by ambulance to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center for recovery.

Now, days after the incident, Bearer has revealed to TMZ that he cut off his manhood for his kids. The rapper revealed it was depression over not being able to see his daughters that drove him to cut off his own manhood, and jump from the balcony. He said he had felt alone and was upset that he couldn't see his children because of a restraining order.

Christ Bearer also told TMZ that on the night of the incident, he was smoking marijuana and reading a book about vasectomies. This belied speculations that his actions were triggered by PCP as what sources reported last month.

Likewise, C.B., a member of the Killa Beez (part of the Wu-Tang affiliate) confirmed Bearer's revelation. He told the gossip site that last month was a tough month for Bearer. With the restraining order and a third child on the way, the rapper felt super alone. C.B added that Bearer started to smoke weed and read a book about monks and vasectomies, which clearly inspired him to mutilate himself.

The good news is, Christ Bearer has regained full functionality of his penis after a successful surgery of reattaching it to his body. Although, reports said he may not be able to have kids anymore.