Victoria Beckham writes letter to younger self about her insecurities and lack of any natural talent
In a touching letter, Victoria Beckham has addressed old insecurities and doubts that her younger self was crippled by. She assures a then-Victoria Adams that, eventually, life becomes exactly what she was hoping for.
The letter appears in British Vogue’s October issue and partners up perfectly with her cover. It paints a picture of an uncertain 18-year-old, who never believed she was the best in anything and would likely never amount to her dreams. And yet, as the public now knows, she eventually rises to fame and makes a name for herself.
In the note, Victoria admitted she never exactly fit in with the other girls, had acne and once thought she was too big to star front and centre at her school’s end-of-the-year show.
“I know you are struggling right now,” she began. “You are not the prettiest, or the thinnest, or the best at dancing at the Laine Theatre Arts college.”
Secondary school, as the note revealed, was the worst time. Victoria was relentlessly teased for her skin, her nose and her well-off family that dropped her off in a Rolls-Royce every day at school. “Complete hell” are the words she used to describe that time in her life, where she felt like a “complete wreck.”
She was 20 when Victoria joined Touch, a girl group that would eventually rename to Spice Girls.
Victoria admitted in the letter that she never fit the mold of standard beauty, and that she was never a natural talent -- not when it came to dancing or acting. But throughout the failed auditions and negative commentary from her teachers, she had always found refuge in fashion.
“You are going to have so much fun with your clothes,” she wrote. Victoria described moments on the red carpet looking like a drag queen and sporting blonde spiky hair. “It will never occur to you that you appear ridiculous,” she teased. “But I look back at you and smile.”
It is after that when Victoria foreshadowed the relationship that would give her the name the fashion world now adores. “Learn more about football, especially the offside rule,” she said. "And yes, love at first sight does exist. It will happen to you in the Manchester United players’ lounge.”
She finished off the letter by noting that things constantly change, as she referenced her latest style transformation. "You will learn, as you mature, to swap heels for Stan Smith trainers, mini dresses for crisp white shirts.”
Victoria has been married to David Beckham for 17 years, and they have four kids together -- Brooklyn (17), Romeo (13), Cruz (11) and Harper (5).
Victoria is a businesswoman, author, singer, model and designer.
